The Words of Christ That Haunt Me
Oskar Schindler’s quote in the 1993 film Schindler’s List haunts me.
I didn’t do enough.
It haunts me, like the story of the rich man who wanted to know what he must do to be saved, and Jesus put it simply. Sell what you have and give it to the poor.
It haunts me, like the words of Jesus when He said, depart from me for I did not know you.
It haunts me, because I am an American. Comfortably middle class, though not always so. I have plenty. A custom house on four acres. Two vehicles that are over five years old, but paid for. A Dooney & Bourke purse my husband gave me one Christmas. A laptop – my third, or is it my fourth? I have a really warm Eddie Bauer winter coat. It would keep me warm anywhere, except the Arctic Circle. I have clothes in three sizes – just because I have the luxury of eating too much, and I do it far too often. I have a pair of J.Jill boots that I love – with these neat buckles that run up the back of the leg. I have books – so many books – and I can order more any time I want. A Kindle and an Amazon membership make it crazy-easy to keep a constant flow of books coming into my life.
Then, there is a tragedy like the one in the Philippines. Our Archbishop and priest ask us to be generous. I’m not even sure what that would look like. I’m pretty sure it doesn’t mean I should drop a five in the offering plate.
Not when I have been given so much. Not when I am fully capable of giving more. Yes, it haunts me.
At the end of this life, I wonder if I will be mumbling Schindler’s line. I didn’t do enough.
I wonder even more what the Lord will say.
Here’s the thing. What He says is not set in stone – yet. Today is the day for me to go and reach into my treasure chest – which is really His anyway – and pull up a gift worthy of a King.
It is about the people in the Philippines.
But it is also about Jesus Christ.
It haunts me, because I do not want to hear Him say, depart from me.
I long to hear Him say the words that are full of life and love. What you did, you did for me. Well done, good and faithful servant. Enter into your rest.
Yes. That is what I long to hear.
And today is the day of decision.