It is like those videos we all love. You click on it. It seems like nothing unusual is happening. The title of the thing tipped you off, though. So you know something is coming. You don’t know if it will “gross you out” or if it will make you want to say “Yes!” or if it will leave you with your mouth open and needing to hit the replay icon because you can’t believe you saw what you just actually saw.
That is what it is like to be in between with God.
The key phrase here is not “in between” but it is “with God.”
If you are with God, there is an unstated title on your life. Wait for it.
This is a lull in the action. It is a time of preparation. Your suffering. The silence. The nothingness is anything but nothingness.
It’s like your soul is being filmed and nothing unusual is happening. But if you are a person of faith and you truly believe that Jesus Christ is Lord and you trust in the Eucharistic Messiah who came to you at Mass and the One who promised that you will have life because you have received,
then wait for it.
He created you and has used you. He will use you again.
Perhaps He wants to heal you first, or equip you, or put into place the help you need to fulfill what comes next.
Or maybe He wants you to be able to look back on the work that is about to unfold and see Him, not you. If it all clicked and happened on your timetable, maybe you would be tempted to think you controlled God or you were the key player in the events.
Wait for it.
Something is about to happen. Those who wait upon the Lord will renew their strength. They shall mount up with eagles’ wings. They shall run and not grow weary. They shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31)
Once renewed, look out. When God acts, you’ll know it. Wait for it.